Monday, March 6, 2017

This is 40

40...  I never thought I'd be excited to turn 40.  Never.  But this year...  I'm very excited! 

Most things in my life are exactly where I'd like them.  I've finally found myself and who I was meant to be.  Two years ago, I never would have thought I would say that.  But, with 6 days to go until I'm 40 it's absolutely true. 

The most obvious thing is my weight loss and exercise regime.  I feel at home in the gym.  Teaching classes gives me this euphoria that is unexplainable.  To have a class full of people showing up week after week and dedicating that time to themselves...  to making their hearts, mind, and body healthy...  it's a fabulous feeling!  I'm so happy that I'm in the place in my life where I can help other people help themselves. 

I'm literally at the same weight that I was in January.  I've dropped a few pounds and gained it...  but you know what?  I've rolled with it.  I'm not obsessed with the scale like I once was.  It's a good feeling!! 

Another thing that has fallen into place for me this past year is my spirituality.  I have found a new church that I love and has made me feel so welcome.  It's a joy to go to services weekly which shocks me.  It's been a long time since I've been to church and when I did go it was out of obligation instead of want.  Finding Jesus again in my life has been a page turner.  I find myself praying and listening to his message more now than I ever had. 

My family...  Bill and I debated for a while whether we wanted a third baby or not.  If you've known me for a while, you know that my body does NOT like being pregnant.  Like, at all.  We had losses and they are hard.  It makes you even more grateful for your babies.  I'm not getting any younger and children aren't getting any less expensive.  So, I think we are confident in our decision to keep our family the size it currently is.  If God decides differently, we'd welcome it but I like where we are right now. 

My marriage...  I don't give Bill enough credit.  I know I am not an easy person to live with at times.  I'm stubborn and have a temper.  But we've been working on things and getting ourselves into a good place.  It's hard....  nobody warns you that marriage is hard work when you're young and in love with the big heart eyes. 

I love Bill so much.  He's good for me and we are good for each other.  We get on each other's nerves at times but I think that is totally natural.  I think that's just the nature of living with another person.  He's an awesome dad and works hard for his family. 

My friends...  I have an amazing support group of friends both local and across the country who I count on to listen, to make me laugh, to lend a shoulder to cry on at times.  And I couldn't be more lucky. 

So 40....  bring. it. on. I cannot wait to see what the next year brings!  And to kick it off a fun night out with girlfriends on Saturday night! 

Monday, January 2, 2017


There it is.  My weight on 1/2/2017. 
That's the last time I'll see the 200's again. 
I know all in all I only had a 2 pound weight gain over the holidays and that's pretty good.  But, I also know that even though it's only two pounds the quality of my food has diminished.  I haven't been eating what I should.  I also haven't been working out as much as I should (for numerous reasons).  It ends today. 
Tomorrow I begin a two week cleanse.  Today I started working out again.  It was hard to get back into it, but I'm SO glad I did.  I took a hot yoga class with Brenda and it was amazing.  I love how strong I feel after a hot yoga class. 
I've come a long way over the past year.  But, I still have a while to go.  I cannot will not allow myself to slack any more.  I will not allow myself to gain any more.  I have a goal to meet and I WILL meet it. 
Everyone always has such great goals for the New Year.  Lose weight, get healthy, quit smoking, etc.  My goal? More patience.  More patience for myself...  more patience with my children...  more patience with my husband.  Please note I said goal...  not resolution.  I believe resolutions were made to be broken.  Goals are meant to be met.  To be earned.  To be worked for.  Goals.  Goals allow you the grace to stumble and get back up.  Goals allow you to hop back on that horse.  Goals. 
Of course, a large goal I have for myself is to meet that number on the scale.  However, the bigger picture is health.  The bigger picture is understanding that the number may not move or move slowly.  The bigger picture is focusing on getting stronger, on building muscle and keeping myself in check.  The bigger picture is doing this not only for my family but for myself.  The bigger picture. 
What are your goals for the new year?  How will you improve on yourself? 
Check-in's will now be on Mondays as I feel that keeps me even more accountable over the weekend. 
Until next week.... 

Monday, November 14, 2016

13 months

A friend made this for me.  Isn't it awesome?

I haven't taken a picture of my weight in a while because it's been the same.  My doctor did warn me that it will get harder to lose the further out from surgery I am.  However, I am not going to let that discourage me.  I have a goal to meet and I'm determined to meet it. 

I have my first spin class this coming Sunday and I'm so excited!!  I'm ridiculously nervous too.  Mark put me at ease the other day when he told me that he still gets nervous before each class which made me feel better. 

I'm not going to lie, it's been hard keeping up with my work-outs.  Being a working mom is hard.  Being a working mom who is trying to arrange her schedule around working out is even harder.  Thank God my husband makes it pretty easy on me by watching the girls when I do need to take a class.  But, he doesn't get home until after 6:00 most nights and it's getting colder out.  The combination makes staying home in my warm house much more enticing.  I need to push myself harder...  nobody is going to build the muscle for me.  Along with weight goals I have strength goals I want to meet.  I want to be able to do a handstand in TRX and a wheel in Yoga without help. 

I'd like to get down to 195 by the end of November.  fingers crossed that I can do it...  especially with Thanksgiving in there! 

Until next time....

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Week 51

I think I miscounted weeks somewhere along the way.... 

5 pounds down this week!  And SO CLOSE to ONEDERLAND!!!

So I've continued with the Ketosis diet and it's worked!  I "cheated" a little bit last night and indulged in Pumpkin Ice Cream from Merrymead. 

I'm staying consistent with working out 4 days per week.  Saturday I have a Vino & Vinyasa event at the gym and I'm SO excited to do it!  I've fallen in love with yoga so much! 

I have some exciting stuff going on that I can't wait to share...  but it's still in the works!  So, stay tuned for that! 

Until then....

High Weight: 324
Starting Weight: 318
Surgery Weight: 300
Today's Weight: 200.8
Total Loss: 123.2
Next goal....  199 pounds...  1.8 pounds to go! 

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Week 49

Down 1.4 pounds this week!  I got scared on Monday because I was up to 209 and change.  I did some drinking over the weekend and it caught up to me very fast! 

I'm on a ketosis diet for two weeks.  It's basically super high proteins and very low carbs.  It's really the way I should be eating when all the other stuff doesn't creep its way in. 

I've had to back off my workouts now that I'm back at work and the girls are back to school.  But, I've been managing to get in two during the week and two on the weekends so I'm at 4 workouts per week.  I'm still pretty proud of that.  I've been doing spin, yoga (including hot yoga which I'm loving!) and barre.  I've backed off the weight type classes for right now in an effort to get more cardio in. 

The big news this week is that I signed up for my SCHWINN spin instructor class!  It's on 10/29 and it's a full day 9 hour class.  I'm really excited about it and a little nervous.  It's a big step I'm taking... 

My ONE YEAR follow-up apt is in Tuesday, 10/4 with my bariatric doctor.  I'm excited to see how far I've come.  They have my pre-op picture on my patient folder.  It'll be nice to get a year post-op to go with that! 

That's about it for now. 

High Weight: 324
Starting Weight: 318
Surgery Weight: 300
Today's Weight: 205.8
Total Loss: 118.2
Next goal....  199 pounds...  6.8 pounds to go! 

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Week 48

I am so sorry for my disappearance over the summer!  We were home with the girls so my time in front of a PC was limited! 

A lot has gone on in the past 6 weeks.  I've been doing personal training 1-2 times a week with my Personal Trainer.  I've been working out at least 5 times per week.  I'm gaining muscle where I never had muscle before.  I had my hands on my sides last night and I could actually FEEL my oblique muscles.  Where have THEY been hiding?  My triceps aren't as saggy as they once were.  I actually have a bicep now!  It's been so cool to see my body change in ways I never realized were possible. 

On the flip side, my weight has been stalled for 6 weeks.  Up until yesterday I was flipping between 208-210 for 6 weeks.  Yesterday I finally reached 207.2.  I realize that it's because I'm building muscle and getting healthier.  It's still frustrating though.  I really want to be at 199 for my one year follow-up with my doctor on 10/4. 

My latest workout obsession is HOT YOGA!  I never would have thought that I'd like it.  Never.  But I love it!  The temperature doesn't bother me like I thought it would.  It makes me sweat so much.  I've never seen my arms and legs sweat before like they do in hot yoga.  It's nuts! 

My spin instructor training is coming up at the end of October, so I'm excited about that too!  I have my first playlist put together and I'm loving it!  I may be going for another certification too...  it hasn't come to fruition yet so I'll save that for another time.  All good things though! 

Here's a current picture.  I think it shows pretty well how far I've come.  A pair of Old Navy jeans in size 16 and a Banana Republic top (that was a dress but it shrunk) in a XL. 

Compared to this picture at 324 pounds a 3x shirt and yoga pants in 26/28...  Yea, I've come a long way. 

I've got some exciting things coming up!  Stay tuned this fall to see where this blog goes! 

Until next week.... 

High Weight: 324
Starting Weight: 318
Surgery Weight: 300
Today's Weight: 207.2
Total Loss: 116.8
Next goal....  199 pounds...  8.2 pounds to go! 

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Week 42

5.8 pounds gone this week!

And also???  

210 Goal BLOWN!!!

I'm really proud of myself for my hard work this week.  I kept my food very tight, worked out 5 days this week (plus two swim days with the girls) and LOOK what I accomplished!  Success happens when you have the right mindset!  

This week I plan on doing the same thing + I'm adding in two training sessions with Regina!  I'm excited about them!  Regina has been one of my best supporters outside of my family and I can't thank her enough for always pushing me to do my best!  

High Weight: 324
Starting Weight: 318
Surgery Weight: 300
Today's Weight: 208
Total Loss: 116
Next goal....  199 pounds...  9 pounds to go!