40... I never thought I'd be excited to turn 40. Never. But this year... I'm very excited!
Most things in my life are exactly where I'd like them. I've finally found myself and who I was meant to be. Two years ago, I never would have thought I would say that. But, with 6 days to go until I'm 40 it's absolutely true.
The most obvious thing is my weight loss and exercise regime. I feel at home in the gym. Teaching classes gives me this euphoria that is unexplainable. To have a class full of people showing up week after week and dedicating that time to themselves... to making their hearts, mind, and body healthy... it's a fabulous feeling! I'm so happy that I'm in the place in my life where I can help other people help themselves.
I'm literally at the same weight that I was in January. I've dropped a few pounds and gained it... but you know what? I've rolled with it. I'm not obsessed with the scale like I once was. It's a good feeling!!
Another thing that has fallen into place for me this past year is my spirituality. I have found a new church that I love and has made me feel so welcome. It's a joy to go to services weekly which shocks me. It's been a long time since I've been to church and when I did go it was out of obligation instead of want. Finding Jesus again in my life has been a page turner. I find myself praying and listening to his message more now than I ever had.
My family... Bill and I debated for a while whether we wanted a third baby or not. If you've known me for a while, you know that my body does NOT like being pregnant. Like, at all. We had losses and they are hard. It makes you even more grateful for your babies. I'm not getting any younger and children aren't getting any less expensive. So, I think we are confident in our decision to keep our family the size it currently is. If God decides differently, we'd welcome it but I like where we are right now.
My marriage... I don't give Bill enough credit. I know I am not an easy person to live with at times. I'm stubborn and have a temper. But we've been working on things and getting ourselves into a good place. It's hard.... nobody warns you that marriage is hard work when you're young and in love with the big heart eyes.
I love Bill so much. He's good for me and we are good for each other. We get on each other's nerves at times but I think that is totally natural. I think that's just the nature of living with another person. He's an awesome dad and works hard for his family.
My friends... I have an amazing support group of friends both local and across the country who I count on to listen, to make me laugh, to lend a shoulder to cry on at times. And I couldn't be more lucky.
So 40.... bring. it. on. I cannot wait to see what the next year brings! And to kick it off a fun night out with girlfriends on Saturday night!